WOOHOOO!
Girl,am i glad its over!?
ahaha.Couldn't sleep last night.practiced shaking with my shaker and slept eventually at 5am.Woke up with a bad throat.Brought a bottle of cough remedy and it got better!haha.I finished it up.Does it count as overdose?
Practiced so many times before my performance.sooooooo nervous!I reckoned almost 6 times.haha.When the magic show finished.It was our time.That was when i really felt the jitters and butterflies in my tummy.
I got up there,spoke a few unrehearsed words.And we started.After awhile it got better.Especially when i thought of your face.The crowd really just went blank.Right on the last note,the crowd had a moment of silent.It was so scary.But lucky there was applause after that.haha.
Glad you were there to hear it.I'm sure you're glad too.It's one of your birthday prezzie.
And i'm really happy i did it the way i wanted.You better not lost the shape of my heart hor!haha!

Tmr,i shall go to school.It's math day and i suck at it.I hope it's not cancelled.Or i'll be so pissed.haha.So yea.All in all.It was great!haha


HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY~!
Here are the teachers i wanna thank:
Miss Sha
Mrs Foo
Mdm Pua
Ms Deborah Tan
Mr Silvam
Miss Lin
Mr Micheal Tan
And all who have thought me before!

Regards,
Frederick

My cornrows were nice.But now,Strains of hair keep comin out.I'll probably take it off in a week or so.I paid $66 for it.But it was a hell of an experience.From the process to the mantainance.I mean i just gotta try it.I've always wanted it.I'M YOUNG.And i may not get to do this in the coming future.So...FML!!I wanna take all the pics i can so that 5 to 10 years down the road,i can say,''Hey,i've been there and done that!''(And my parents haven't noticed yet,tmr's the big night!)

Well,This week was really the worst week for us.And i really mean it.We bounced back.And today was really the turning point.I mean.We had a day out.And it was great!We caught a movie.haha.Grown Ups.And it was real funny and lame to me!haha.The start was a bit awkard for me.As i'm ashamed of my hair!hahah.But after awhile...it got better.And i hope you still love me the way you loved me months ago.Or even more.I've let you down and i'm sorry.We're both sorry.so yea:)
I'll treat you better,that's for sure.Well,i guess i'll just have to learn to be a little like you and more unlike me.So,we do you say?i say we're fine!I'm glad we're fine.Sleepless nights are gone.Now it's just recouping myself from the sleep i've lost!I'll never wanna relive this shit again.I mean.it was painful and hard for both of us.It just made me realise how much you really mean to me.I know i couldn't lose you.It just wasn't the time yet.I knew.I could feel it.
The fuel was lacking,but we were lucky to be able to attend to it in time before the flame ran out.
:D

Regards,
Frederick

Labels: The love's still there

Really.If I had known,i would have said it.But sadly,no.It's late at night and i can't sleep.No joke.It's been days.In succession,without fail.Here's a story:

Emptiness,loneliness and uneasiness kidnapped me and had been keeping me captive for quite sometime.Those 3 bullies sure gave me a hell of a time.They are bad company.Occasionally,hope and faith trys to save me.Unfortunately,they were chased away by the three villians.However,they still stayed out there.Once in a while,I could peep through the window and catch a glimspe of them outside.It's a pity i couldn't let them in.I tried.But the three bullies won't let me.And Happiness,oh,that guy,sure is great!Did i mention that they are afraid of him?When he comes,he stands up for me.He beats the bullies up and gives me freedom.But after every attempt,either at night or days later,the gang brings reinforcements.And thus chasing happiness away.The cycles goes one.There is a man called trust,who can defeat them once and for all.I need trust to pay me a visit.He and i used to be good buddies.However,he's ill,last time i saw him was months ago.I need to find my freedom,away from this captivity.I need a medicine of sorts,or a cure will be better.So that i can salvage my very good friend,Do you think,perhaps,you could help?




But what i know is what i'm feeling now.We haven't been meeting for quite sometime,don't know if you're used to not having me around or even realised.All our meetings never fail to be interupted.Even on my birthday.My holidays are up,and how many times have i met you?Thrice.And the whole month of august?Five times.And i know i get to see you on weds and fris.That's my motivation for going there.And it's taking a toll on my studies.i can't just go there every wed and fri.That's my way of ''forcing you'' to see me.now you know why i don't call it seeing you.We can study together when we meet up,but you'll probably think thats a bore.And ah..did i mention how much i look forward to outings.Especially sats.I really look forward to saturdays actually.Just that half a day.But some saturdays are just fucked up.That's all i get.That's all we get,if it even means a thing to you.I don't know how are we gonna squeeze us in your tight schedule,but this gotta work babe.You know you can mobilize me anytime,anywhere,and i'll be there.From dawn to dusk.You know that I'm willing to.Due to your last minute personallity,i have to keep my days free.Just hoping i'll get a msg,''Let's meet up''.As you can see,i kept my first week empty.Even through the weekends.I know you had exams,but even so.You din't study on the days i gave up.I knew that it won't happen.so you could see what i did on the second week.And now the third week?Here's the outcome.Is seeing me a liabillity?Just like any other school day that will wear you up?Or am i that ugly?Or fat, shitty and irritating.Here's where the ''hot'' shit comes in.I can't even ring you up at night.Either you're too tired,lazy or busy.After awhile,as you can see,i've stopped trying or asking you.Maybe once in a while i'll try acting,by pretending there's something i needa ask you.But efforts were all in vain.It brings back the question ,how much do i mean to you and your little heart,i really wonder,not sacarstically,but literally.The truth always hurts.Deep down there,i can see you trying.But this is what i feel.I'm sorry,but this is my part of the story,what's yours?


What else can we do?That's the thought of the day.Of course,we could end this.But it isn't a solution.I mean,it's not that easy and fair for us,right?We can work this out.I'm sure.We just haven't come up with a equation that could bring us inner peace and tranquility.
This may start a tiff,and alot of controversy,but fuck it.i need it out.i just can't keep it in.
I know this hurts,but writing it is equally hard.

Labels: don't worry., Love is still there

Haven't been blogging for some time.A long time actually.Didn't had the mood.Many things happened,Don't wish to elaborate.But yea,I'll be fine soon.Had presentation last friday.Another one tomorrow.Today i went to Dania's party.Was kinda fun.Accept for some glich here and there.And i made new friends.so yea.

I miss you.Hope your suffering will end soon.
If i can take it away and put it on me,i would.
I can only watch,you know how bad that feels?

Regards,
Frederick

Labels: I love you.