Really.If I had known,i would have said it.But sadly,no.It's late at night and i can't sleep.No joke.It's been days.In succession,without fail.Here's a story:

Emptiness,loneliness and uneasiness kidnapped me and had been keeping me captive for quite sometime.Those 3 bullies sure gave me a hell of a time.They are bad company.Occasionally,hope and faith trys to save me.Unfortunately,they were chased away by the three villians.However,they still stayed out there.Once in a while,I could peep through the window and catch a glimspe of them outside.It's a pity i couldn't let them in.I tried.But the three bullies won't let me.And Happiness,oh,that guy,sure is great!Did i mention that they are afraid of him?When he comes,he stands up for me.He beats the bullies up and gives me freedom.But after every attempt,either at night or days later,the gang brings reinforcements.And thus chasing happiness away.The cycles goes one.There is a man called trust,who can defeat them once and for all.I need trust to pay me a visit.He and i used to be good buddies.However,he's ill,last time i saw him was months ago.I need to find my freedom,away from this captivity.I need a medicine of sorts,or a cure will be better.So that i can salvage my very good friend,Do you think,perhaps,you could help?




But what i know is what i'm feeling now.We haven't been meeting for quite sometime,don't know if you're used to not having me around or even realised.All our meetings never fail to be interupted.Even on my birthday.My holidays are up,and how many times have i met you?Thrice.And the whole month of august?Five times.And i know i get to see you on weds and fris.That's my motivation for going there.And it's taking a toll on my studies.i can't just go there every wed and fri.That's my way of ''forcing you'' to see me.now you know why i don't call it seeing you.We can study together when we meet up,but you'll probably think thats a bore.And ah..did i mention how much i look forward to outings.Especially sats.I really look forward to saturdays actually.Just that half a day.But some saturdays are just fucked up.That's all i get.That's all we get,if it even means a thing to you.I don't know how are we gonna squeeze us in your tight schedule,but this gotta work babe.You know you can mobilize me anytime,anywhere,and i'll be there.From dawn to dusk.You know that I'm willing to.Due to your last minute personallity,i have to keep my days free.Just hoping i'll get a msg,''Let's meet up''.As you can see,i kept my first week empty.Even through the weekends.I know you had exams,but even so.You din't study on the days i gave up.I knew that it won't happen.so you could see what i did on the second week.And now the third week?Here's the outcome.Is seeing me a liabillity?Just like any other school day that will wear you up?Or am i that ugly?Or fat, shitty and irritating.Here's where the ''hot'' shit comes in.I can't even ring you up at night.Either you're too tired,lazy or busy.After awhile,as you can see,i've stopped trying or asking you.Maybe once in a while i'll try acting,by pretending there's something i needa ask you.But efforts were all in vain.It brings back the question ,how much do i mean to you and your little heart,i really wonder,not sacarstically,but literally.The truth always hurts.Deep down there,i can see you trying.But this is what i feel.I'm sorry,but this is my part of the story,what's yours?


What else can we do?That's the thought of the day.Of course,we could end this.But it isn't a solution.I mean,it's not that easy and fair for us,right?We can work this out.I'm sure.We just haven't come up with a equation that could bring us inner peace and tranquility.
This may start a tiff,and alot of controversy,but fuck it.i need it out.i just can't keep it in.
I know this hurts,but writing it is equally hard.

Labels: don't worry., Love is still there